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Maybe some of us find it unnerving to realize “I have to let this go.” Maybe most of us struggle to determine what we should let go versus what we should hold on to in spite of challenges we will face. I was thinking about this last night, and decided to search online with the words of my title to this blog post. I guess I was a little surprised to find multiple articles and podcasts with these same words in their titles.

Some of you may remember a few weeks ago (months? I don’t remember) when I said that one of the components of my new “dream job,” Tertiary Tuesdays, was taking up most of my time instead of only occupying one day of the week, and I needed to reevaluate…

I’m feeling compelled to let it go. I have worked tirelessly to build relationships that would last, resources that would evolve, and teams that could carry on in my absence, but I am finally at a point that I realize it doesn’t really matter what happens after I’m gone from the organization. I was invested in improving the dynamic within the organization and making sure the work was done in a timely manner because my Church was the beneficiary from the organization’s existence. However, our Church has been meeting at a different location for almost 2 years. I’ve been wondering why I’m still investing so much of my time and energy to an organization that I never would have invested in if it wasn’t for the need of my Church. When evaluating decisions, I often try to define my big “why.” I want to always run towards something instead of away from something.

The decision to let this work go may seem obvious to you as the reader, but I’m processing all of it in my heart and mind. I’m finally at a point where I see this like so many other things I’ve worked at through the years. I contributed to the best of my ability for the season I was involved. At some point, I realized that when I moved on, the people, organizations, workplaces, and groups continued on as they saw fit in their own way.

I need to accept that this is another part of my personal journey in this life, and focus on the people and things that are mine to hold on to. My world may be getting smaller for a season because of this change, but I’m ready to run toward the parts of my “dream job” that have been neglected for the past six months.

Maybe I should settle in to slowing down a little, and rename my Tuesday objective to Tranquil Tuesday!